a chef's road is a long and windy road

The law of attraction..

you will attract events or outcomes that manifest from the thoughts that springs forth from your head.

Be CAREFUL of what you think about

recently, i read an acquaintance's blog to understand what a friend was going through after reading the very same blog. I proceeded with utmost caution as i believed it to be peppered with negative details. the same fear that white washed addicts feel when they see a naked needle lying 5 feet away..It didn't take me long before i manage to locate the exact post that made him feel that way.

I arrived at the tombstone marked with inscriptions of grief.

I am a fan, always been one of literature with grey moody undertones, this account i read has made me feel so vulnerable. The baring of a soul that received no respite from the ghost of a past relationship.

Can you recall when was the last time you summed up the courage, to believe once more, the promise of an everlasting, the unspoken, the healer of fates, the bringer of good tidings, that fair maiden, the charming knight, that one person you want to be with that stands with you against the world.

its cruel out there, " no problem"
things are going to be rough "let's do this together"
we don't have a chance "with you, a slim chance is all i need to make it whole"

all worries fencing your new found faith, as the firecrackers dance, demons crushing your sacred world. The impregnable fortress of being alone seems infallible.

Then, this person appears, crashes through the window when you least expect it
holds fast to your hand and bolts right out of your door, despite your desperate pleas,
For the first time in your life, yr head catches a gleam of the world beyond. you go woooooowww except that you were silent,not wanting to show your excitement, yr gleeful rapture.

you let yr eyes raid the thousand lands and sail the deepest seas, still, thats not enough,
you try your best to grasp the unclutchable skies only to realise you are as small as the world that u had lived in.

you lived in a world within a bigger world all your life till this person came.

all the hope
the dreams
the promises
the the the the the the the the the the the....

its always tougher in the end,
to build is the easy part, there are simply no limits
to tear it all down bleeds you away
you wonder if u want it to even go away
no, it took too much effort to be where you are now, there's no way of re-entering the castle once more, just no way!!!!! what's this sensation, why the hot flushing tears, why does the nose acts up, as if i am not losing enough fluids.

when things get bad, we think only of the worst to come and nothing more
worst=the end of it all
the end of life without
bonnie without cylde, romeo minus the anxious juliet, sky robbed of its azure blush,

stop,
at the other end
there's something else
not just the castle
something better
i can feel it
different
illusion
blind faith
new hope
not again
why not
let's see what's there

wanna see?