Just to say

I went to WLS from aug 24-26 and i was not blown off but it was a better weekend than the first one for me.

I felt wiser, calmer and more certain of what i wanted to do in the business and find out from my leader how to get about to doing it

Its really simple, in order to lead, you have to learn to follow first.

after enduring the tirade of "scoldings" by peter cox from the magnificent cds that i've been listening to. I have made a few decisions in my life.

I'll start by eliminating all the unneccessary clutter from my life
it begins with organising my table, my work, my fyp, cutting off one tuition from two.

Learning to prioritise what i hold dear. The criteria was really simple, is what i am doing now bringing me closer to what i want in future??

with that in mind, i sat down and asked myself. I have a few answers..

1)my family
2)my family
3)my family

the rest down the list boils down to voluntary projects and material needs.

for now, number 4 goes to

4) health

i am going to undertake this health program that will tweak my health and weight issues to a manageable equilimbrium. The weight i hold will not rebound like a rubber band unlike the previous times. I was awed by the presentation i saw, and once again, it was simple in execution ... you eat 11 meals a day, this will essentially alert your mind that you are not hungry. this is crucial as the hunger stimulus instructs your mind to store fats from carbohydrates. This is the backup plan the body has for you in the name of survival ( considering how difficult and impossible for us to get food at any point of time in the day or night ) This stimulus is like a worrisome mom on her preschool kid.. just ain't important anymore.

It is a 30 day cycle and when i succeed, i will definitely share my success formula with all who wants to be helped.

I read a couple of books over this few days that passed, Questions are Answers by Allan Pease and Quick Emotional Help Book by two brilliant phd brainiacs. I found out i have high EQ from an online test which are at the most, a good guideline than a reveal all. I realise that even with the information i gleaned from the book. The only way i can assimilate it into my system is to practice it on a daily basis. Apply what you read, correct what was wrong whilst practice makes perfect.

During a meeting with Casey, i felt one step closer to my personality grooming goals.
It was great to meet him because i realise he's still one of the person i respect the most.
The unwavering soul. he who lives by righteousness doesn't step far from the light and trounces the shadows of the dark. A elder brother indeed.

Despite his honest opinions, i believe the business will help achieve his dreams and goals just like how i believe that everyone will embrace this concept as its sole aim to help yourself through helping others.

New doubts surface to be crushed by facts not perception (Martin Chung)

Its an opportunity that's being provided whereby we are on trial rather than the system that has worked for millions and millions before me.

You are your only wall, any excuse you throw is just blaming others for your own mistakes.

I read on the papers, a wife got to the living room only to find her jobless husband lying on the couch. she Urges him on : Why not you get up and find a job? Husband replies blatantly : Do not talk to the leader of the largest nation in the world! Can you guess what nation this is???


PROCRASTINATION


it has buried man's hope and enslaved him onto a lifetime of drudgery, IS IT FAIR?
we embrace our books seeking an answer to our problems, modern society made it a problem of cash, its the lack of it that makes it a problem.
We fear the handcuffs of poverty, the talk behind our backs, the pressure to conform and find a better job, the "If everyone is doing it, why not you?" mentality which permeates across every strata of the nation, crippling the desire of all ambitious souls. We had a Dream, to some, Dreams.

Why stop dreaming now?

You have the power to change things, break the cycle, forge new gears and create your lean mean DREAM machine.

The vehicles are parked right outside your door, you can see it everyday and you summon negative thoughts of it every single hour.

the thing is , once you step over, you are a champion, no longer a victim,
you start to walk against the tide, its tiring i know, everyone is walking back,
they see a tsunami ahead, all you see is a pipeline to burn a trail across.

IT IS THERE, that hollow calm safe tunnel of hope amidst all the turbulence,

You have many choices, make the tough one so that you have all the time to contemplate the easy ones in future.

more importantly,
YOU ARE NOT ALONE, WINNERS FROM THE PAST, PRESENT AND FUTURE are CHEERING YOU ON.

just one more step, buddy, great, another one, and another one and another one.

if you see the future you cheering you on, would you stop and shoot yourself in the foot by giving up, its too tough, why not take it easy, if you must walk across a bed of cactus, would you rather experience the first prick and you retreat or endure it, grimace all you want, but you still endure coz you know the moment you cross, its an oasis waiting for you there

I don't know about you guys, i just saw my oasis

and that's where i am heading!

a chef's road is a long and windy road

The law of attraction..

you will attract events or outcomes that manifest from the thoughts that springs forth from your head.

Be CAREFUL of what you think about

recently, i read an acquaintance's blog to understand what a friend was going through after reading the very same blog. I proceeded with utmost caution as i believed it to be peppered with negative details. the same fear that white washed addicts feel when they see a naked needle lying 5 feet away..It didn't take me long before i manage to locate the exact post that made him feel that way.

I arrived at the tombstone marked with inscriptions of grief.

I am a fan, always been one of literature with grey moody undertones, this account i read has made me feel so vulnerable. The baring of a soul that received no respite from the ghost of a past relationship.

Can you recall when was the last time you summed up the courage, to believe once more, the promise of an everlasting, the unspoken, the healer of fates, the bringer of good tidings, that fair maiden, the charming knight, that one person you want to be with that stands with you against the world.

its cruel out there, " no problem"
things are going to be rough "let's do this together"
we don't have a chance "with you, a slim chance is all i need to make it whole"

all worries fencing your new found faith, as the firecrackers dance, demons crushing your sacred world. The impregnable fortress of being alone seems infallible.

Then, this person appears, crashes through the window when you least expect it
holds fast to your hand and bolts right out of your door, despite your desperate pleas,
For the first time in your life, yr head catches a gleam of the world beyond. you go woooooowww except that you were silent,not wanting to show your excitement, yr gleeful rapture.

you let yr eyes raid the thousand lands and sail the deepest seas, still, thats not enough,
you try your best to grasp the unclutchable skies only to realise you are as small as the world that u had lived in.

you lived in a world within a bigger world all your life till this person came.

all the hope
the dreams
the promises
the the the the the the the the the the the....

its always tougher in the end,
to build is the easy part, there are simply no limits
to tear it all down bleeds you away
you wonder if u want it to even go away
no, it took too much effort to be where you are now, there's no way of re-entering the castle once more, just no way!!!!! what's this sensation, why the hot flushing tears, why does the nose acts up, as if i am not losing enough fluids.

when things get bad, we think only of the worst to come and nothing more
worst=the end of it all
the end of life without
bonnie without cylde, romeo minus the anxious juliet, sky robbed of its azure blush,

stop,
at the other end
there's something else
not just the castle
something better
i can feel it
different
illusion
blind faith
new hope
not again
why not
let's see what's there

wanna see?

the world essentially for me and you

we live in a world that revolves around many central themes, this is a contradiction on its own.
I'm not even talking about the airflare that a bboy does or how our planes spiral down the airways. Its the life unattached to all other parts of life. It simply does not exist.

and so it hurts

any logical mind is capable of sieving through remnants of our sobriety before the devising of certain concrete plans of placing ourselves right on track. IT MEANS Cutting STRAIGHT TO THE POINT. we often miss out this important point and end up jeopardising our own lives at the expense of others in the mix as well. If we are such frail creatures, we shouldn't be allowed to wield such influence over another being capable of even more grievious hurt. We need protection.

Most of the time, unlike the protection orders marching from the court doors, we need an inner sanctuary, a place where we can retreat if the noise or human traffic gets to us.

ever had a day go by without yr bus being late, a stain on the blouse, hair in a mess and a MASSIVE headache to boot. that's not all, this emotional fracas continues back at work or in school, the deadlines pile up like dead corpses that has gone gooey in a putrefied mess.

We could do less with those days, can't we all.
To be Reasonable, we can't expect everyday to be blooming daisies but the least that we can ( low requirements) is to minimise the hubris that huddle us on a daily basis.

We put out floodgates, install exits, plan evacuation routes, a lil of one grand scheme at a time.
Nobody needs einstein's brilliance to chalk out the blueprints of salvation.
its taking lego blocks of determination, stacking it with follow up plans, wall of a castle before the next.

First things first,
can what u do help what u want to do
can who u been with assist u in what u do
can time be of more use when u do what u do
can yr answers justify yr actions for doing so
can u face the mirror and fail to see yr evil twin back at the neck
can u just take a piece of paper and write what u must do now before things get worse

are u a crisis waiting to unfold, are u a letter that will never be sent, are you going to be same everchanging you?

i think living with yrself is much harder than living with anyone else
its the responsibility towards other ppl that forces u to conform.
being aware doesn't equate doing the things to our heart's desires
the good virtues and the righteous orgasm of being true has a dissipated dream of broken wings

i lie for gd, can it be any gd
i confess to atone, nothing can be redeemed
i love you like hell, i burn within

i see a way out
do u?